CHAOS, IS HER ELEMENT.

It's always the same for me. Once things finally start coming together, everything suddenly falls back apart. And there I am again, alone. I just wish the world would take me as I am. Because I don't know how much longer I can hold on, trying to handle these days of gray. Depression isn’t just being a bit sad. It’s feeling nothing, it’s not wanting to be alive anymore.

Sometimes I feel there is a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear you could probably hear the ocean. The moon tonight, there's a circle around it, a sign on trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night wanting, but sometimes when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don't know, maybe I've had my happiness. I don't want to believe it, but there is no man, only that moon.